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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

kebiasaan aneh

Rasa..rasa..rasanya....
gw harus balik pada diri gw sendiri..balik ber-insomnia-ria...men-design ini dan itu..ng-brows2...nyobain resep masakan ini itu dan kembali menulis di blog ini...fuhhh....
akhir-akhir ini gw merasakan suatu kejanggalan dalam diri gw..entah kenapa gw jadi males melakukan semua kegiatan yang pada dasarnya semua orang lakukan di muka bumi ini.

gw males tidur malem2..males kemana2 sendirian...males makan (bayangkann..) males nyobain semua hal baru dan monoton.
sebagai gantinya, gw jd sering bangun pagi tapi ga tau mo ngapain..jadi rajin minum aer putih meskipun ga ada rasanya..jadi gampang banget tidur pules...dan keabisan ide..
hahahaa...

aarrghh..gw kangen kebiasaan2 gw sebelumnya...haha...
gw tau itu salah dan melanggar aturan kesehatan..tp gw seneng dan enjoy..terasa tak ada beban dan ga perlu diatur sama rule yang membosankan..
apalagi ide selalu muncul di waktu2 yang tak terduga...hhahahha..

tapi gw berjanji, suatu hari nanti gw pasti sembuh dari kebiasaan2 aneh gw..
gw mo tidur malem lg..begadang sampe pagi..ngerjain design...browsing2...dan yang pasti merapikan blog ini dengan tulisan2 yang berguna.

intinya disini adalah mungkin ini sekedar tulisan yang ga berguna dikala hidup terasa membosankan dan begini2 aja..haha..

service

ahhh..finally..finally..
ternyata ganti template sama aja kaya bikin baru..fiuhh..sungguh melelahkan..
dengan kata lain kaya service blog sendiri..haha

sambil chitchat sm seorang temen, dia bilang mau service motor besok.
trus gw bilang..
"kayanya gw juga butuh diservice nih.." hahaa

trus tiba2 muncul sesuatu dan kira2 begini,
Manusia layaknya motor ato kendaraan bermotor laennya.
butuh perawatan, servive 3 bulan sekali dan perlu 'bensin' supaya bisa jalan.
Apa akibatnya kalo mereka ga pernah dirawat?
yea..silahkan mencoba pada kendaraan masing2..haha

Otomatis, jd gampang 'ngambek', kotor, bau, boro2 ada yg naksir..
blom lagi pake acara 'stag' di jalan..
can you imagine?

Yes...manusia jg gitu..
kalo kira2 uda mulai letih lesu dan tak bertenaga, rasanya sensitive, mo marah2 melulu, jarang mandi dan keramas, BT mulu bawaannya, 'pelit' senyum, males kemana2, ngambek on the max..dan masih banyak lagi..

Nah gw rasa itu tanda2 manusia kudu diservice!
silahkan kunjungi bengkel2 terdekat dan pilih service yg anda inginkan.
pastikan itu memuaskan dan jgn lupa datang kembali..
hahaha..

try it! ^^

Thursday, October 22, 2009

option for GOD

Otakotakotakku mungkin uda jadi otakotak...pusing tujuh keliling..
ga tau rasanya campur aduk ga karuan..
i've so many things to do lately...mo meledaakkk!! aarrgghh..
fiuhh..jadi teringat di Film Startrex beberapa waktu yang lalu..
ada 1 nilai bagus,

"Pada saat pikiranmu sedang kacau, kamu tidak berhak untuk memimpin!"

Sekarang, pengen banget mengalihkan segala tugas kepemimpinan ini ke orang lain yang mungkin lebih 'pantas'
entah ini Good Idea or God's Idea.. i dont know..
all i just know that i need to take some rest and REFRESH my mind, body and soul.

im soo tired of talking and doing many things..:'(
i cannot handle myself.
i want to show them up how i really BORED w/ all of the programs!
don't make me busy, Sir!
i want to shout,"What do you expect, Sir?!
You said that i've to understand, heh?! 
Alright..i'll do it! 
but don't fault me cz all of the probs!

GOD, i need Your mercy, help, strength and blessing.
i cannot understand them...i can't...
now it's they turn to understand me.

So, "what's Your idea, GOD?"

a. Stop a while to take some rest and then continue it
b. Should i give up? and QUIT forever
c. Try to understand (again) and keep calm down
d. Just do it!
e. .....still MY secret...

im open w/ Your BEST idea which is good for me.
even it hurts badly..or doesn't make sense..
i trust in YOU.

waiting for YOUR answer, GOD.
Thank you

just having fun :')

GOD, can i having lots of fun with YOU?

Entah kenapa malam itu gw bisa kepikiran gitu..
hmm..tanpa bermaksud 'me-manusia-kan" ke-Ilahi-an' Tuhan.
but based on my imagination, HE's a Great God!
He can BE anything or someone that He wants.

After the journey, full of tears..
i just thinking that view months lately,
my life had so much tears..
i don't know what's His Best Plan for me..
He just wants me to Trust Him and Love Him as the way He is..

rasanya...rasanya...too hard to explain by words..
God, can i having lots of fun with YOU?
CAN i ? only YOU and me..
No one else...
no job desc anymore...
NO *CHURCH* bureaucracy!
NO *Annoying People*...anymore..who's *like to tell a lies about me*...!


just laughing out together...telling the funniest stories..
cryin out...dancing together...sing heavenly songs...
drink glasses of coffee...taking so many photos and upload it to Facebook..
so, others could give it comments and yea...
show them that YOU are really FUNtastic!

After i imagine it,
i just cried on my bed..
and said, 
GOD, i am really happy!
for every tear that fall down..
it's such a FUN time that i had with YOU..

Suddenly,
He said gently,
Where are you when I want to having Fun w/ you, dear?

...no answer...
i cried louder than before...

Sorry for all of YOUR tears that fall down when i have so much fun without YOU.
i didn't meant it...really...

and i close my eyes, and said..
GOD, do YOU want to having lots of Fun with me now? <3>

sibuk!

Ok...rasanya uda seabad ga mampir2 ke blog sendiri..
yah segudang hal menyita waktuku u/ ber'autis' ria, juga berbagi pengalaman disini..
tiba2 tercipta sebuah statement yang  bilang kalo,

"Orang yang mengaku dirinya sibuk sebenarnya mereka yang kesulitan mengatur waktunya."

and that's really true..
sepertinya aku butuh sekretaris, assistant, time keeper or yea whatever...
hahh gaya bener...yah...begitulah...

Well....mari mulai merapikan sesuatu yang 'berantakan'
meski untuk memulai dibutuhkan suatu kerja keras dan yang penting adl INISIATIF.
dengan segala inisiatif yang tersisa, juga sedikit kerja keras..
yuuuu mariii..=))