OKTOBERFEST! part 1

OKTOBERFEST! 

Yes it's the month of surprises and i want to CELEBRATE it with you guys!

04 Oktober 2002 
Tepat 10 tahun yang lalu terakhir merayakan ulang tahun (alm) papa. Berduaan di Bakmi Gang Kelinci Pasar Baru. Nasi Tim menu terakhir pesenan papa di hari ulang tahunnya. Kami duduk berhadapan. Hanya diam dalam keheningan. Begitulah papa...pria penuh misteri dan cerita dibalik diam. Hari itu begitu istimewa krn terakhir kalinya papa memberikan barang kenang-kenangan yang hingga kini tersemat di jari manis tangan kiri sy. Sebuah cincin di hari ulang tahun papa (yang terakhir). "Setiap anak perempuan harus pakai cincin dari papa sampai suatu hari cincin itu digantikan oleh calon suaminya." kata papa. Sy cuma diam tak banyak kata krn menahan air mata.

04 Oktober 2012

Hampir sepuluh tahun kurang beberapa bulan sy menjalani hidup tanpa papa. Hari itu sepulang kantor sy hangout dg teman-teman sy dan kami kedatangan teman dari Cambodia. Coffee shop di bilangan Sarinah selama ini menjadi tempat favorite kami utk duduk berbagi keceriaan bersama. Dari mengobrol soal pengalaman, kegiatan sehari-hari hingga ke musik. Sy sempet cerita disitu kalau sy mau beli gitar krn gitar hadiah dr mama sy hilang entah kemana. Ya sambil berlalu gitu aja, kami pun kembali ke rumah masing-masing. Pk 23.30 Teng sy masuk kamar nyalain lampu and... SURPRISE!!!!

Sebuah GITAR merk Yamaha tipe C-390 PERSIS seperti milik sy yg hilang sekitar 6 tahun yang lalu  sekarang mejeng di kamar sy. Ga pernah terpikir segitu cepetnya. Baru ngomong sejam yg lalu di Coffee shop e sekarang barangnya ada. NYATA!

Speechless!

Lantas siapa pengirimnya? Sempat terlintas beberapa nama dan ternyata dugaan terkuat sy jatuh kepada Agus & BrightUpBand. Merekalah yg menjadi malaikat pengantar barang ini hingga tiba di kamar sy TEPAT di hari ulang tahun (alm) papa.

Malam itu tidak seperti malam-malam sebelumnya dimana sy sering gak bisa tidur tanpa sebab. Malam itu terasa lebih istimewa. Bukan sekedar barang yg sy inginkan tiba-tiba sekarang duduk manis di kamar sy, tetapi satu pesan mendalam yang sy gak akan pernah lupakan.

Suara lembut itu berkata,"I am the BEST PROVIDER EVER, your Heavenly FATHER. Even from the tiny thing you didn't ask me for, I'll provide. Since I took your father, didn't I promise become yours, better and the BEST FATHER than any father in this world?"

Bibir ini tak mampu mengucap apa-apa, rasanya bahasa air mata cukup menggambarkan haru biru malam itu. Sukses berat Bapa di Surga bikin hati anak perempuan ini meleleh sampe jam menunjukan pukul 3 dini hari dan mata ini menutup dg sendirinya.

Thank you Agus, Nana, Glen...BrightUPBand! 

Words doesn't enough to describe how i should say THANK YOU :""""")

"Apa yg pernah hilang kini sungguh dikembalikan dan apa yg pernah diambil dari padaku kini digantikan dengan yang TERBAIK!"

Kehilangan papa jasmani (mungkin) merupakan salah satu cara Tuhan utk mengenalkan kasih PAPA yang sesungguhnya TANPA HARUS TAKUT KEHILANGAN utk kedua kalinya.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAP! I love you (still)

Forever i'll always be your little girl...

Stronger!!

Hi...!

Still remember my story about my 1st Israel Trip? oops...did i post it here?

ah...i even don't remember...haha...sorry...

okay, i'll share it here.

i was pray for Israel Trip on September 2009.

i don't remember exactly, but i was pray so hard. Together with Liza n Cynthia. They're two sisters of mine. I love them so much.

i never been there on that day and goin there is one of my greatest dream. 

i pray so hard and spent my money. i knew it wouldn't enough.

i need miracle to take me there.

About four months later, i just spent 800 USD and the trip price was 2400 USD. it just 1/3 part of. It was insane and full of risks as well. But i told God, if You want me to get there, You'll open the way no matter what and how. I want to see miracle happens.

Two weeks before the trip.

They said i'm in. OMG! i couldn't believe it! Really.....!! How come? i don't know till now. Even i don't have any cent in my pocket. i need to buy these and those. i just cried out loud. Once again i pray to God, You're already open the main gate, now it's time to open all the way. i'll see the whole MIRACLE.

A week to go.

Suddenly my aunt sent me 500 USD. Even she couldn't know about this trip.

it was surprised me and i called it the Second Miracle after.

Two days to go - Travel Briefing

i forgot to buy a lipgloss. the thing is i didn't have any time more to do that.

and you know what, someone just got back from USA and she gaves me something. when i opened....yes! LIPGLOSS! i cried out.

i called it the Third Miracle.

Miracle by miracle was comin up and i see God within.

i never expected for the worst ever.

cz i know He'll never shame on me.

even the tiny thing, He take care of me.

A day before The BIG day.

Liza said we'll not going to. i laugh. she said it once again. i'm worried.

i couldn't described it by words actually. The situation was so hard and i confused.

you know what guys, it was an awkward and hardest moment when i couldn't talk to anyone.

What the hell if the trip is really cancelled? What about people said?

How about my mom, whole family, best friends, everyone?

O My God i couldn't stand it if it really happens.

so, where are YOU, God?

i tried to gain my Faith by texting Liza and Cynthia. Hope they'll do the same thing.

They're my Faith Booster fyi. 

But we're all confused and depressed on that day.

i was pray along the night. did packing my stuff. then pray again. cried out loud. till my hands UP and said,

"God, if You want me to passed it, i will do if You're with me. And let me still come to the airport and finished my FAITH. I'll face it till the plane take off."

i finished my prayer and said.. Amen.

4 p.m.

OhLaLa Cafe, Terminal 2, Soekarno Hatta International Airport

my mom was accompanied me there. She didn't know what's the real happen. 

She met Cynthia. They both cried.

My heart cried as well but i show it off with my Big Smile on my cheek.

what an emotional condition.

i really couldn't stand it actually. but i keep SMILING.

5 p.m 

6 p.m - Check in time

7.10 p.m - TAKE OFF.

My heart was broken.

i took my bag and said good bye. i'm going home with my head down.

i couldn't hide my tears. i CRIED out loud.

i was SAD and HAPPY at the same time.

because i finished it very WELL.

and curious what did HE taughts me?

here...

"The SUCCESSFUL of your FAITH is not when you get what you're prayin about. BUT when it's even FAILED, you could still standing like a man and say, I LOVE YOU GOD whatever the circumstances."

i cried out more.

i smile in the mid of tears fall down.

what the sweetest moment i had.

Thank you Lord Jesus..

You're the BEST teacher ever.

Special thank also for Liza and Cynthia.

You both had inspired me to keep in Faith.

and here i am.

STRONGER in FAITH.

Love,

Yulia - Woman of Faith

I Love you! By: God

This is GOD.

Today, I will be handling

ALL of your problems for you.

I do not need your help,

so have a nice day.

I love you

And remember,

if life happens to deliver a situation

that you can not handle,

do not attempt to resolve it yourself! Kindly put it in the SFGTD

(Something for God to do) box.

I will get to it in MY TIME.

All situations will be resolved,

but in MY TIME, NOT YOURS.

Once the matter is placed in the box,

do not hold unto it by worrying about it.

Instead, focus on all wonderful things that are present in your life now.

Love,

GOD

i'm Yours!

Hallo...Selamat Pagii semuaa..

Pagi ini rasanya begitu bersemangat memulai hari satu minggu ke depan.

Rasanya jarang ada semangat seperti ini....di hari Senin...

Aku merasa hidup jadi lebih hidup.. merasa cinta yang teramat sangat..

Masih inget ga?

Kalo "Kasih mengalahkan segala ketakutan"

iya bener...pagi ini aku ngerasain..ngalamin bener-bener...

Mungin aku jatuh cinta..aku tenggelam dalam sungai cinta..

dan ketakutan itu pergi...hilang sendirinya...

Whom shall i fear?

Cz i'm on the Right Hands...I'm Yours...

I Love YOU, my Beloved Father.

and i want to love YOU more.

Love,

Your beloved daughter

Believe it or Not?!

Welcome Baaacckkk!!!!

after 3 months lately...i never visited my blog...my home of words...

and i promise you all that i'll keep writing...writing my experiances for these 3 months..hihi...

i don't know how to start..

but this quote maybe will be a Good Opening:

"Keep the DREAM ALIVE...Don't let it DIE!"

it's TRUE and i BELIEVE it!

why..? here's the whole stories...

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Five years ago...in a Mission Converence from Youth Networking, God gaves me passion for mission field. He gaves AFRICA for me. It was GREAT and mades me confused at the same time. i thought it just an ordinary feeling...young people emotion...But i promised God to keep praying until He answered the vision.

i pray for this thing about two years.

then i didn't remember again.

Last year...exactly on June 2009 (i already join Manna Project ministry), my leader Peter Kwee talked to me in a prayer meeting. He said,"We have a plan to go to South Africa next year, for a World Cup Mission Outreach...so, you need thinking hardly to make a Great Design."

I was surprised on that day. I just thought.."O God, this is my dream...go to Africa."

I talked to myself..."Yulia, you need to pray for this first before you take it so deep."

The time has gone...and God opened the way each by each...

till on February 2010...we met the wrong connection..and the project almost canceled.

you know what....i did really disappointed...:'(

a week before my birthday on the monthly meeting, i talked to the rest of the team...that i would keep praying till God answer this dream.

Peter also said that i must beg to God, praying to Heaven and keep fasting.

i took the challenge and i did it.

Feb 25th 2010 was my Bday.

i pray to God...i have 3 things as my prayer and one of those was i beg Him to open the door of South Africa and sending us a Project Manager for this project. i also wrote the criterias of him. The dateline was on March 2010.

"You need to open the way or just close it and give us a sign." i said to God.

March 2010, God really answered my prayer.

He sent us someone from Netherland, Bastian his name.

The criteria was exactly like i was pray before.

and at the same time, He opened the door of South Africa.

From Capetown, He connected us with Ps.Why and Marina. Great Person in there.

Awsome!!

April 2010,

God remind me about the vision 5 years ago. i just cried aloud. How could it be?

and a little moment that mades...i had said to my friend either in 5 years ago that i would going to South Africa 5 years later....and now i've been there, friend...

June 6th - July 6th

i was in Capetown, South AFrica for World Cup Mission Outreaches.

This is GREAT! This is what God was done in my life.

(i'll write the stories later)

Now, i'm back to Indonesia...and still didn't believe it!

DREAM DO COME TRUE!

believe it or not, God's Vision for us is ALIVE!

you just need to take the first step to BELIEVE it with your whole heart and it will become true.

This is HISTORY. This was created by God.

This is my GREAT EXPERIENCE with God, Jesus Christ.

BELIEVE IT or NOT?!

WORRY

Beberapa minggu terakhir, gw disibukkan oleh banyak hal...Mulai dr kerjaan kantor...meeting sana sini sampe sidejob2 serta acr informal lainnya..Yess...berasa orang penting bener...

Otherside...selain hal2 diatas, satu hal yg bikin otak gw super duper sibuk..sampe2 ga bisa di turn off alias kaga bisa tidur selama bermalam2..

Gw putuskan untuk Doa Puasa sampe hal yang kuminta itu terjadi.

Kalo emg Tuhan berkehendak, tolong bukain SEMUA Pintu..kl emg Engga, Please CLOSE it forever. Itu aja doa gw...

Tapi tetep aja makan ga niat..tidur pun tak pulas...

sampai gw dapet satu Guarantee from God....gini bunyinya..

"When you PRAY and ASK 4 something, BELIEVE that you've RECEIVED it, and you will BE GIVEN whatever you ask for."

Spontan LEGA bener..iya yah..knp sih mesti worry?

Hidup uda susah kq ya diisi oleh kesusahah2 lainnya.

Sedangkan dg ke-KHAWATIR-an, tidak menambah se-HASTA umur kita.

Oh My......kaya teguran kecil tp efeknya GEDE!

mugnkin saatnya kita lebih relax dg hidup kita.

God has written our life stories before it mades....

It's Done....He knows everything.

Whatever your problems, We DON'T NEED to be WORRY!

Original Version

"God's Plan are Unique." My Friend told me.

Yes it True and i believe it.

Rumus sederhananya gini:

Tuhan itu Unik = Rencanya jg Unik

Tuhan itu Pencipta = Unik = Ciptaannya jg PASTI UNIK

Seandainya Kita = CiptaanNya = tidak Unik.

Kesimpulannya cuma 2:

1. Kita ini ciptaannya siapa?

2. Ada yg salah dengan kita hasil ciptaanNya.

Is there somethng wrong w/ your life, buddy?

If the answer Yes...Please re-start your life now or download the new version.

If it doesn't work... Please contact your Customer Service in the line below:

H.E.A.V.E.N

God will repair yourself back to original and unique.

Keep it from any VIRUS named EVIL!

Got it?

Don't Worry!

Siang tadi on the way menuju Hypermart MGK, gw tiba2 kepikiran koq rasa2nya gaji gw yg sekarang ga cukup yah...baru gajian, e tau2nya uda habis aja lg...dari mulai buat perpuluhan, persembahan khusus, bayar insurance, nabung, blom belanja bulanan, ongkos...dlll..

Aaaarrgghhhh....

kapan gw KAYA nyaa?? gimana mau ke EROPA kl ky gini teruss?

Tiba2...gw kepikiran ttg cerita klasik ttg ANAK YANG HILANG.

Layaknya orang tau dlm cerita ini, yang ilang itu kn si anak bungsu yang ga tau diri, bokapnya blom meninggal tp uda minta warisan n foya2 hingga jatuh miskin.

Tapi kalo kita perhatikan sedikit,

at the end of the story, si bungsu pulang dan disambut meriah oleh PAPA nya.

Otherside, si Sulung merasa PAPA nya ga adil krn dia yang telah bekerja keras tapi ga mendapatkan apa2.. Si Sulung Hilang di rumah PAPA nya sendiri.

Sang PAPA hanya berespon,"Anakku, hartaKU adl milikmu jg."

jelas sekali suara itu dengan lembut bilang gini,

"Uang yang kamu terima setiap bulan itu bukanlah GAJI, tapi UANG JAJANmu selama kamu hidup di bumi...Seandainya itu GA CUKUP/HABIS, ya sudah...MINTA lagi aja sama AKU..Kn AKU ini PAPAmu...HartaKU adl Milikmu juga...Kenapa mesti WORRY?"

Hampir aja meledak tangis gw di bajaj itu..tp aku tahan.

Stkh gw pikir2, iya juga yah...knp gw mesti worry? Toh gw kn anak RAJA. PAPAku yg punya seluruh langit bumi n segala isinya. Huff...!

Guys, sometimes kita seringkali jadi si Sulung yang hilang di rumah PAPA nya sendiri.

Kita ga bersyukur dg apa yg telah diberikan dalam hidup kita.

Kita dibutakan oleh keinginan2 daging, hawa nafsu, juga iri hati...sehingga kita ga lihat bahwa pada saat kita kekurangan atau dlm situasi yang terjepit, PERTOLONGAN Tuhan nyata dlm hidup kita.

Bukannya semasa sekolah dulu kalo uang jajan kita habis, toh kita tinggal minta lagi kn sm Mama n Papa kita?

Demikianlah jg dg PAPA kita di Surga.

Don't Worry..Be Happy =))

PUASA!

PUASA!
antara males dengernya ato males ngejalaninnya.
Sapa juga yang suka nahan laper...haus...sepanjang hari.
sementara itu kita liatin iklan2 di Tipi soal betapa nikmatnya ayam goreng KFC yang diracik dg 11 bumbu rahasia.. plus model iklannya yang berACTING lebay waktu makan tu ayam.
Ato iklan Mie Sedap yang sebenarnya ga se-sedap rasanya..cuman bumbu2nya..tampilannya..bagai menyulap mata & perut pemirsa yang lagi PUASA!

Cuma..tadi pas g lagi jalan ke Ruang Makan,
menuju arah Kulkas berniat mengambil sepotong Wafer.
tiba2...g tau it's God's Voice.

"Kamu disuruh PUASA aja Males, bawaanya GA Niat...tapi koq sering PUASA Baca Alkitab?"

*GLEK*
g tertegun sejenak dan buru2 balik ke kamar dan posting tulisan ini.

Iya yah...ternyata scr GA sadar g pernah beberapa kali puasa baca Alkitab.
Misalnya...Hari ini g baca 20 pasal..trus besoknya 10 pasal...
Besoknya lagi...krn g kecapean..i just pray w/out read the Bible..
trus...besoknya lagi, krn sadar kemarennya g ga bc Bible...g bikin dobel jd baca 30 pasal.

SAMA kn ky PUASA!
Hr ni Lo Puasa...saking kelaperan seharian,
pas lo BUKA PUASA..lo makan sebanyak-banyaknya...
akhirannya perut lo sakit dan pengen muntah!

and i understand now..
kenapa banyak orang yang hari-hari ini mengalami SAKIT scr Rohani...

"Karena porsi MAKANAN ROHANI mereka GA Teratur!"

(J.D)

BUT

Pengen lanjutin Les Francais g yg tertinggal jauh...=(((
krn semalem g nonton film France trus g hah heh hoh kaga ngerti artinya..
vocab Francais-ku..hancur minah! O Ma Dieu!
tapi jauh di Salemba...(padahal dulu bisa bolak balik pulang malem pula naek mikrolet)
Mo private lg...tapi kq malas yah...BAYARnya mahal! haha

Pengeh Les Animation 3D..
tapi males liat Schedule and males Daftar karna pasti musti BAYAR!

Pengen les Masak di Ranch Cooking School...
tapi jauh banget di Pondok Indah & St.Moritz..
(kemahalan ongkos ke situnyah)

Pengen ganti HP baru...yg ini ud ngambek mulu minta diservice..
tapi ga punya budget..

Pengen ceking...
tapi kata orang2 bagusan ky gini...**ALIBI** banget..haha
(padahal mah males olahraga aja)

Pengen tinggi..
tapi rasa2nya uda ga memungkinkan karena umur..

Pengen ini dan itu..
ada ga sih yang GA BAYAR?!?

Banyak banget keinginan kita setiap hari.
Baik yang penting maupun engga.

Tiba2 muncul satu statement di otak g..

"Keinginan yang disertai kata TAPI biasanya ga akan pernah terjadi."

Nyeseekk banget..but it really TRUE!
Kalimat setelah kata TAPI seringkali menjadi penghalang bagi kita u/ mewujudkan apa yang menjadi keinginan hati kita.
Gawatnya kalau yang menjadi keinginan itu adalah sesuatu yang LUAR BIASA.

"We can LOOSE everything we want and dream on, when we put the word BUT inside."

Oh NO! i'm scare..

I still want to go to France, South Africa, Israel, Egypt, San Fransisco, China, Hongkong, Germany, Netherland, Swiss, Dubai, Papua, and travelling around the world.
I still want to be skinny...get scholarship in Art and Design University in France, get chance to learn in Cooking School in Le Cordon Bleu, France...open some Cafe..
Still want to have a Great Husband, Married, have two children, being RICH..
Still want to be an INFLUENCE and GREAT Person in this world!
and so many dreams that i had...

Oh GOD, how BIG is it..
YOU are MORE than that! Yes, YOU are, Daddy..
and......it's too small for You, right..?

Ok...YES...just make it REAL for me...haha <3
i'll STOP say..BUT...

Last Day on 2009

Today is a last day in this year 2009.

i'm sad but at the same time i can't wait longer till new year..=))

The year 2009 was very AWSOME for me.

i love to tell everyone how God was made many GREAT things in my life.

very unbelievable!

i thank God for all of that He has done in me.

FAITH is a journey to the Heaven.

Without Faith, we cannot see God.

Faith is the first step to see Miracle.

Without Faith, you'll never see that.

With Faith, i was began this year.

And now i will end this year with a Gratefull Heart,

thank GOD for teaching me how to have and Keep a BIG Faith till the end of this year.

Good Bye 2009..

Welcome Year 2010!

The Year of LOVE..

Masa Tuhan Gombal

Thank God...

kata-kata ini terus meluncur dari mulutku hari-hari ini.

Ah rasanya betapa bodohnya diriku di hari-hari yang lalu.

Berdoa minta tanda...Tuhan kasi tanda..

tapi aku-nya belaga buta..

Berdoa lagi minta jawaban...Tuhan nya uda kasi jawaban...

tapi aku-nya lagi-lagi belaga budeg...

Tuhan uda bilang jelas-jelas,

"AKU akan terus sayang kamu apapun yang terjadi..."

dengan polos aku bilang Tuhan gombal..

ternyata satu hal sederhana saja..

Cinta nya Tuhan ternyata beda dengan cintanya aku ke DIA..

Cinta Tuhan itu AGAPE..

tulus...tidak menuntut apa-apa...

Cintanya aku EROS..

selalu nuntun Tuhan bikin mujizat..kasi tanda..jawaban...dll..

kalo inget-inget....aku jahat...aku cuma Eros ke Tuhan...

makanya setiap Tuhan bilang sayang ke aku,

aku-nya ga pernah sadar....

tapi satu hari itu Tuhan tanya lagi..

"Yulia, apa kamu AGAPE sama AKU?"

"kalo AKU ga bisa buat mujizat, apa kamu tetep AGAPE sama AKU?"

"Kalo AKU ga bisa kasi apa yang kamu imani, apa kamu terus AGAPE sama AKU?"

Tuhan...

sekarang aku ngerti..

kenapa waktu Tuhan bilang sayang, itu ga pernah nyampe ke aku..

karena aku masih EROS ke Tuhan..

sekarang...ak tau...dan aku mau AGAPE ke Tuhan.

"Sekalipun pohon ara tidak berbunga, pohon anggur tidak berbuah, hasil pohon zaitun mengecewakan, sekalipun ladang-ladang tidak menghasilkan bahan makanan, kambing domba terhalau dari kurungan, dan tidak ada lembu sapi dalam kandang, namun aku akan bersorak di dalam Tuhan, beria-ria di dalam Allah yang menyelamatkan aku." (Habakuk3:17-18)

option for GOD

Otakotakotakku mungkin uda jadi otakotak...pusing tujuh keliling..

ga tau rasanya campur aduk ga karuan..

i've so many things to do lately...mo meledaakkk!! aarrgghh..

fiuhh..jadi teringat di Film Startrex beberapa waktu yang lalu..

ada 1 nilai bagus,

"Pada saat pikiranmu sedang kacau, kamu tidak berhak untuk memimpin!"

Sekarang, pengen banget mengalihkan segala tugas kepemimpinan ini ke orang lain yang mungkin lebih 'pantas'

entah ini Good Idea or God's Idea.. i dont know..

all i just know that i need to take some rest and REFRESH my mind, body and soul.

im soo tired of talking and doing many things..:'(

i cannot handle myself.

i want to show them up how i really BORED w/ all of the programs!

don't make me busy, Sir!

i want to shout,"What do you expect, Sir?!

You said that i've to understand, heh?! 

Alright..i'll do it! 

but don't fault me cz all of the probs!

GOD, i need Your mercy, help, strength and blessing.

i cannot understand them...i can't...

now it's they turn to understand me.

So, "what's Your idea, GOD?"

a. Stop a while to take some rest and then continue it

b. Should i give up? and QUIT forever

c. Try to understand (again) and keep calm down

d. Just do it!

e. .....still MY secret...

im open w/ Your BEST idea which is good for me.

even it hurts badly..or doesn't make sense..

i trust in YOU.

waiting for YOUR answer, GOD.

Thank you

just having fun :')

GOD, can i having lots of fun with YOU?

Entah kenapa malam itu gw bisa kepikiran gitu..
hmm..tanpa bermaksud 'me-manusia-kan" ke-Ilahi-an' Tuhan.
but based on my imagination, HE's a Great God!
He can BE anything or someone that He wants.

After the journey, full of tears..
i just thinking that view months lately,
my life had so much tears..
i don't know what's His Best Plan for me..
He just wants me to Trust Him and Love Him as the way He is..

rasanya...rasanya...too hard to explain by words..
God, can i having lots of fun with YOU?
CAN i ? only YOU and me..
No one else...
no job desc anymore...
NO *CHURCH* bureaucracy!
NO *Annoying People*...anymore..who's *like to tell a lies about me*...!

just laughing out together...telling the funniest stories..
cryin out...dancing together...sing heavenly songs...
drink glasses of coffee...taking so many photos and upload it to Facebook..
so, others could give it comments and yea...
show them that YOU are really FUNtastic!

After i imagine it,
i just cried on my bed..
and said, 
GOD, i am really happy!
for every tear that fall down..
it's such a FUN time that i had with YOU..

Suddenly,
He said gently,
Where are you when I want to having Fun w/ you, dear?

...no answer...
i cried louder than before...

Sorry for all of YOUR tears that fall down when i have so much fun without YOU.
i didn't meant it...really...

and i close my eyes, and said..
GOD, do YOU want to having lots of Fun with me now? <3>